still not feeling great. going to see the chinese tui na doctor tomorrow. big grocery trip and getting bridge and then getting the house in order. listening to the the cocteau twins, i find it one of those bizarrely intoxicating combinations: listening loudly to 'pearly dew drops drops' and 'akie guinea' at dusk, in the fall, in massachusetts. it's one of those things that all aspects have to be there (and it's better on vinyl). i'm not sure what it is, it's as though the music and the forces of nature all fit together.... into work to find fellow band mates somewhat drained. actually had to go away during the break, got still more focus on moto perpetuo intro, and am feeling excited about it. current quote that haunts the days: "The obstacle to this vision (of the central mission of Jesus) is our false conception of love as a polar force of attraction, similar to the attraction between two bodies carrying opposite electric charges or between the poles of a mganet. Attraction implies repulsion. As unlike charges attract, like charges repel. If the love beween man and God were of such a character, it would imply that man and God stood at opposite poles and could never be united without losing their love for one another. Divine Love does not derive its power from separation but from union. It is not fullness but emptiness, not Being but the Void." -J.G. Bennett "the Masters of Wisdom"